I Am Thankful

I feel grateful. Believe me, this is a really, really big deal. I am usually too busy doing shit to take part in that whole "examining the spirit of the holiday" thing. Today is somehow different. I am still busy doing shit. Yet, I have this sense of being protected from the world's ravages by my friends, family, and colleagues and the rich experiences they've brought to my life. I am thrilled to have had such a rewarding year of work filled with new challenges and discoveries and connections. Why is this such a big deal? It means I've had a mental shift; that my brain is working well again. It means I am not depressed, in a very clinical sense, and it is rare indeed for me to be in this state without the help of medication. For when I am depressed, I cannot find gratefulness anywhere in my heart or mind, no matter how hard I try. Today, I am filled with it.

I pray that all beings everywhere are equally blessed.